Learning things

I am thankful that I am able to learn and progress. I do not yell as much as when Amelia was small. I still need to improve on keeping my temper, but I am doing better. Also, I used to have trouble seeing Amelia as a different person than me, but I have learned that she is a different person. I used to be more focused on her negative qualities and now I see: a great babysitter, a very outgoing girl, a beautiful smile, a terrific speller.

Early to Bed, Early to Rise log

Friday night: 12:55

Saturday night: 12:08 (before the falling back)

Sunday night: 11:06 (and I don’t think that accounts for falling back–boy I really need to change these clocks!)

Monday: before 10 pm

Tuesday: 11 p.m.

Wednesday: 12:05 a.m. (Oh, no I see a disturbing trend!)

Thursday: 11:30 p.m. (babysteps!!?!!)

Is Anybody There?

As I continue to blog, and as I continue my obsession with Google analytics, I notice that no one reads this blog. I am talking to myself. Alas, I would like an audience. This is something I only have on Wednesdays–if I remember to feverishly refresh my screen over and over Tuesday night, waiting for the chance to post my Works-For-Me-Wednesday tip. But even if I get near the top of the list at Rocks in My Dryer , the Wednesday crowd clicks over to see my WFMW post and then clicks away. So most of my posts are rather lonesome.

The difficulty is that I want to post on what ever I want, which typically tends to be about whatever I am thinking. Whatever I am thinking (written with very little editing–I have little ones to take care of!) turns out not to be particularly magnetic to blog traffic.

So–am I okay with that? How much am I willing to craft my blog in an effort to get traffic, how effective is “crafting” my blog in that way, how would a more “crafted” blog be different than this blog, and am I so in need of an audience that it would be worth it to me?

I don’t know.

Things are seldom as bad as they seem

I am Eeyore. Have you read the real Winnie-the-Pooh? there’s nothing wrong with Disney, but I am not talking about the short, simplified Disney version of Pooh. I am talking about A. A. Milne’s work in all its original glory. It is such a clever book, and if you are only familiar with the Disney Pooh (based on Milne’s, obviously) you will be amazed at how much there is for parents’ enjoyment.

Anyway, as I was saying, my tendency is Eeyorish. That is why I need this gratitude journal. The thing I am thankful for today is that for me at least, the cloud always lifts. If I am convinced that I am a terrible mother, my children are unlikable, my husband hates me, my marriage is not good–well, the next day it passes and all my sweet ones are lovable and loving and everything is okay with the world again.

When I feel like Eeyore, I need to remember to just go to sleep! Things will be better in the morning.

Update: I  enjoyed this discussion of Eeyorish tendencies over at Mormon Mommy Wars.  Be sure to read the comments.

I heart antibiotics

Two nights ago Duncan woke up complaining that his ears hurt terribly. I was able to get him in to see the doctor and sure enough he had one badly infected ear and one starting-to-get-infected ear. The doctor prescribed amoxicillin.

At the pharmacy I ran into my sister-in-law. She asked if we would be coming to dinner on Sunday. I said yes, assuming the kids were better (Kate also has a cold). Then to clarify that we were planning on it, I waved the pharmacy bag, and said, “I just got antibiotics!” When I turned around, where before there had only been my sister-in-law there was now a crowd of people, all looking at me. I felt silly and I imagined that the onlookers were all thinking, doesn’t she know that some things aren’t treatable with antibiotics? Oh well.

Duncan was so much better this morning that it was unbelievable. Do antibiotics work that quickly? My sad sack, acting near death little boy transformed into his sweet happy smiling self over night. It was a relief. I am thankful for antibiotics.

No Snickers bars; good cake

Ugh. It’s very hard to write in my gratitude journal when I feel so low. I am down about Pdad and I parting ways on the voucher question. I guess I take it as a symbol of how different we are. I wish I could write a perky post about how I’m thankful for differences, but I really don’t feel that way. Accepting other’s differences, especially accepting the fact that Pdad and I are different people and that we are both okay–that is a battle I’m still fighting.

Anyway, I am thankful that I ate no Snickers bars today. I had a couple of Sweettarts.
Also, I got up very early, 6ish? (Although the sleep deprivation–Duncan was up repeatedly last night crying–might have something to do with my low mood).

Finally, I overdid it and made a German chocolate cake and the frosting from scratch this morning (for the bereaved family’s luncheon after the funeral)–despite no sleep and very, very needy children. Probably shouldna have. : ( But, if I were making a cake for my own family, I would not want to make one out of a mix. I would want to make the tastiest one I possibly could. I could do nothing to compensate for my friend’s family’s terrible loss, but I could put all my love and effort into a really good cake, so I did.

Later one of the church ladies dropped off my cake pan. She said she didn’t get any, but she heard from the family that it was excellent and my bereaved friend got the last piece and really liked it. (Not to be competitive or anything–but you know that’s who I am–there were lots of other cakes there). That made my day.

WFMW: Incentives for little ones?

What incentives do you use for your little ones? I don’t want to offer candy; that would teach that eating and/or food is a reward–not a direction I want to go in. I don’t want to offer television, because there is too much of that and it makes TV seem too desirable. For my 8 yr old daughter 10 minutes of reading has been a fabulous incentive. She no longer leaves her clothes on the floor and she always puts her backpack away. But what do I do for my three year old?

For more great Works-For-Me-Wednesday questions (and their accompanying tips!) visit Shannon at Rocks in My Dryer. This week is especially good because it is the backwards edition. Rather than posting tips, we all ask for tips. This makes for the best advice of all, because it showcases the collective mommy wisdom of the internet.

My other Works-For-Me-Wednesday posts:

Labeling and Containerizing
Vacationing with Young Children
Great Pasta
Fine Hair Hair Care
Teaching Independence
Cook’s Illustrated
Rx Info
Sleep Baby Sleep
Grocery Sack–Alternative Use